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Okay, just this one quiz:

very fucked.

what fucked version of hello kittie are you?
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Mostly, I thought the graphic was so awesome that I had to post it.

Okay, just this one quiz:

very fucked.

what fucked version of hello kittie are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Mostly, I thought the graphic was so awesome that I had to post it.

Original ideas

I kind of like to keep a journal like this. With the internet, you can scream into the void and the void will give you feedback. I like that the networked nature of this allows me to keep in touch with friends who live far away and get to know new people I might not have met otherwise. But I hate the way there are people sitting there reading my daily thoughts to figure out what they should work on next. I start talking about wanting to do more on the sort of con circuit stuff I did on the east coast and looking for makeup artists who can do more fantastical stuff and it takes days before someone who reads my journal decides that that is their next creative move too.

Two weeks ago, I had some guy tell me that he thought I might think his site was a rip-off of Gothic Sluts but actually he got his domain three years before I launched Gothic Sluts and his idea was actually a riff on Blue Blood in print. Like I was supposed to be mollified by the idea that he thought of copying me earlier than I might have guessed. At the time, I noticed that he actually got his domain months after Gothic Sluts launched, but I like some other stuff the guy has done, so I didn’t call him on it because I thought it would just annoy him to be caught. So, anyway, usually I don’t really look at the specific names of who signs up, but last night I was working on some drudge work for the site and I see that this guy actually was a member of Gothic Sluts for months before he got his domain name much less launched his site.

I used to think it was really cool to be inspirational. Only I am really not into the thing where people are inspired by me and by what I create. And then they do something themselves. Which should mean that I get colleagues and people to chat about stuff I care about with and people to do cool projects with. But really means that then they get to act like they invented whatever they are doing and make things harder for me.

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Hmm, I just got up from a nap. Feeling much better now. Don’t really remember where I was going with this. If anyone is wondering why my patience is a lot shorter than usual, you can take a jaunt over to Forrest Black’s journal where he has already quite eloquently laid out the situation.

–Amelia G

I kind of like to keep a journal like this. With the internet, you can scream into the void and the void will give you feedback. I like that the networked nature of this allows me to keep in touch with friends who live far away and get to know new people I might not have met otherwise. But I hate the way there are people sitting there reading my daily thoughts to figure out what they should work on next. I start talking about wanting to do more on the sort of con circuit stuff I did on the east coast and looking for makeup artists who can do more fantastical stuff and it takes days before someone who reads my journal decides that that is their next creative move too.

Two weeks ago, I had some guy tell me that he thought I might think his site was a rip-off of Gothic Sluts but actually he got his domain three years before I launched Gothic Sluts and his idea was actually a riff on Blue Blood in print. Like I was supposed to be mollified by the idea that he thought of copying me earlier than I might have guessed. At the time, I noticed that he actually got his domain months after Gothic Sluts launched, but I like some other stuff the guy has done, so I didn’t call him on it because I thought it would just annoy him to be caught. So, anyway, usually I don’t really look at the specific names of who signs up, but last night I was working on some drudge work for the site and I see that this guy actually was a member of Gothic Sluts for months before he got his domain name much less launched his site.

I used to think it was really cool to be inspirational. Only I am really not into the thing where people are inspired by me and by what I create. And then they do something themselves. Which should mean that I get colleagues and people to chat about stuff I care about with and people to do cool projects with. But really means that then they get to act like they invented whatever they are doing and make things harder for me.

******

Hmm, I just got up from a nap. Feeling much better now. Don’t really remember where I was going with this. If anyone is wondering why my patience is a lot shorter than usual, you can take a jaunt over to Forrest Black’s journal where he has already quite eloquently laid out the situation.

–Amelia G

I meant to post this before.

I meant to post this before.

I am posting this information as a general answer to people who post in my journal asking about shoots. Usually, I just delete posts asking about photo stuff if I am not interested for whatever reason. However, someone who talked to me as a person here beforehand just asked about shooting some fashion art photos, so I thought I would post a response.

Answer: I have boxes and boxes of film and prints covering the space where someone else would get to have a living room. I really don’t like to shoot anything unless I have an idea where it can/will be published. It takes time and dough to do a shoot. If you have an idea for something specific with a particular designer you like for a particular publication, I’m always open to suggestions, so please feel free to pitch me. I am more closed now than I used to be, but I am not entirely closed by any means.

For example, I would have been into doing a feature on the C9 fashion show, but the committee told me that altgoth in general actively did not want anything from the convention to appear in magazines as it could attract non-net people and that quite frankly the Vegas committee would not be doing it next year, so they didn’t give two hoots about coverage on my high traffic web sites either.

I’ve given a lot to my community. In some respects, I feel like I have given too much. I just got stabbed in the back pretty darn hard (and no I don’t mean C9 — that was like stepping on my toe while I was getting knife wounds) and I’m not totally in the mood right now to spend a lot of time and money doing something which is a lot more good for the other person than it is for me. I am not currently interested in shooting a band promo for free or shooting a catalog for free or helping random people build their portfolios. I’m sick to death of all the people who hit me up for favor after favor and then decide to demonize me so they do not have to say thanks.

If you or your company are interested in hiring me and Forrest Black to shoot commercial work, please email me privately at Amelia@SwagMag.com

If you are interested in being on http://www.gothicsluts.com/ please write to info@gothicsluts.com and if you are interested in being on http://www.barelyevil.com/ please write to info@barelyevil.com

If you have a really awesome artistic concept, I am particularly interested creatively right now in doing more special effects-oriented shoots, so definitely pitch me anything like that if you have the hook-up on it.

If you are interested in being in one of the non-nude magazines we shoot for, why don’t you tell the publications to stop lying, cheating, and stealing, and show some love. When you finish doing that, you can tell all the bands we’ve helped get signed to hire us instead of someone less talented when they actually have a budget. Tell the club promoters who were cagey about guest list, after I’d spent thousands getting their nights exposure, to show a little love. Tell all the designers we’ve gotten press to stop thinking they can trick us into shooting their catalogs. Hell, tell all the designers who give free swag to strangers in the street to maybe offer us something if we have hooked them up. Tell the convention organizers who recently started tugging on my bankroll that 2003 is the first time in more than a decade that I have gone to a convention where I was not either a guest or press or both and I doubt I’ll be doing it again soon.

Tell all the people who have been bizarre, controlling, and demanding WHEN WE WERE SPENDING TIME AND MONEY TO MAKE THEM BEAUTIFUL AND GLAMOUROUS AND MORE FAMOUS to show a little love.

To whoever thought this post was too long to read and just skimmed to the end, that is exactly how much I thought you cared about my feelings, so let’s not shoot until your 50% deposit check has cleared my account.

Love, Amelia G

I just saw some more candid pictures of me taken in Vegas two weeks ago. I am so on a juice fast for the next couple of days and then I am going to make a new schedule with my personal trainer. I live in Los Angeles.

I just saw some more candid pictures of me taken in Vegas two weeks ago. I am so on a juice fast for the next couple of days and then I am going to make a new schedule with my personal trainer. I live in Los Angeles.

I had a really awesome shoot yesterday with Scar. She is such an excellent model and human being. I hope she won the contest she was in last night. She probably did.

Hmmm, perhaps a Scar and Szandora shoot . . .

I had a really awesome shoot yesterday with Scar. She is such an excellent model and human being. I hope she won the contest she was in last night. She probably did.

Hmmm, perhaps a Scar and Szandora shoot . . .

Thought for the day:

Something I really detest about human nature is that a lot of people find it painful to be grateful, so they end up demonizing anyone who does them a favor which is too big to be repaid in kind. They do not understand the concept of appreciation or paying it forward, so they choose to be hateful instead of grateful.

Thought for the day:
Something I really detest about human nature is that a lot of people find it painful to be grateful, so they end up demonizing anyone who does them a favor which is too big to be repaid in kind. They do not understand the concept of appreciation or paying it forward, so they choose to be hateful instead of grateful.

So BLT aka Black Leather Times was the punk rock humor zine I did in the 90’s and we’ve got an archive online at http://www.blackleathertimes.com/ I ran into an old friend when I was in Vegas last week and he mentioned that he and a number of my old compatriots from the SF con circuit and the DC punk scene have found BLT online. Apparently a lot of other people have found it when maybe it was not what they were looking for. Here are some of the search terms from April and May:

big+bore+pistols

bitches in leather

black leather

black leather curtain

circle jerk dares

elves in black leather

fat albert leather

female instructing male to masturbate

foolproof suicide

gothic lesbians

gothic sluts

gothic sluts fishnets

gothic+sluts

green loctite

hot for teacher

hot gothic sluts

how to give yourself a mohawk

im gothic and i like black guys

kurt sightings

leather bitches

leather fucking

leather fucking swing

leather latex sex

leather puppy hood

leather rock

leather suicide

leather tech

leather tux

leather+sluts

mary+kate+olsen

medium sized penises

micro thong

micro thong wear

morissey lyrics

music made me kill

pinkboys

punk leather

punk rock times

really nice jerk

sluts bananas

smoking nutmeg

summer of love cover

valentine michael manson

So BLT aka Black Leather Times was the punk rock humor zine I did in the 90’s and we’ve got an archive online at http://www.blackleathertimes.com/ I ran into an old friend when I was in Vegas last week and he mentioned that he and a number of my old compatriots from the SF con circuit and the DC punk scene have found BLT online. Apparently a lot of other people have found it when maybe it was not what they were looking for. Here are some of the search terms from April and May:

big+bore+pistols
bitches in leather
black leather
black leather curtain
circle jerk dares
elves in black leather
fat albert leather
female instructing male to masturbate
foolproof suicide
gothic lesbians
gothic sluts
gothic sluts fishnets
gothic+sluts
green loctite
hot for teacher
hot gothic sluts
how to give yourself a mohawk
im gothic and i like black guys
kurt sightings
leather bitches
leather fucking
leather fucking swing
leather latex sex
leather puppy hood
leather rock
leather suicide
leather tech
leather tux
leather+sluts
mary+kate+olsen
medium sized penises
micro thong
micro thong wear
morissey lyrics
music made me kill
pinkboys
punk leather
punk rock times
really nice jerk
sluts bananas
smoking nutmeg
summer of love cover
valentine michael manson