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Portland entry #3

For years, I have had this fantasy about spending a month in Portland and writing a brilliant novel. Then some competitive thieving jerks moved to Portland and sort of polluted my dream on that. LOL, I just realized that more than one person is going to read that last sentence and think I meant them. Ah, well. I don’t know how some people live with themselves. I’ve done two things I think are wrong in the past like five years and I kick myself for them regularly. Don’t bother guessing. I’m pretty sure no one reading my journal could possibly know both. Correction: Two people do, but they won’t be guessing.

I guess I should make some phone calls and get ready for my shoot this afternoon. Then I’m hitting the town. Rumination on debauchery coming later. Possibly in a few minutes if the folks I need to phone are still asleep. Wake-up call is soon, but apparently I’ve given up sleeping at all normally.

Vegas entry #2

I had a really cool cab driver in Vegas too

For years, I have had this fantasy about spending a month in Portland and writing a brilliant novel. Then some competitive thieving jerks moved to Portland and sort of polluted my dream on that. LOL, I just realized that more than one person is going to read that last sentence and think I meant them. Ah, well. I don’t know how some people live with themselves. I’ve done two things I think are wrong in the past like five years and I kick myself for them regularly. Don’t bother guessing. I’m pretty sure no one reading my journal could possibly know both. Correction: Two people do, but they won’t be guessing.

I guess I should make some phone calls and get ready for my shoot this afternoon. Then I’m hitting the town. Rumination on debauchery coming later. Possibly in a few minutes if the folks I need to phone are still asleep. Wake-up call is soon, but apparently I’ve given up sleeping at all normally.

I had a really cool cab driver in Vegas too

Portland entry #2

There is a Japanese style soaking tub with jacuzzi jets on the balcony of my suite in my hotel in Portland. Tried around three sex things I’ve never done before.

Perhaps too much information for a not exactly private blog, but I’m tired of the huge split between my public and private selves and I’m working on bringing them closer together.

Portland entry #1

People in the Pacific NW are a lot less driven than I am. People anywhere really, but it takes some getting used to in Portland. Had a great shoot last night. Had our model bring her boyfriend to tie her up and he was totally cool. That is right, one of my beautiful sexy incredible could-have-anyone models is actually going out with a good-looking guy who is pleasant to be around and nice to her. Whoo-hoo!

Vegas

So checking a bunch of my online stuff remotely is difficult, but there is high speed internet in the business center in my Portland hotel.

Was great seeing Szandora in Vegas. I wish people would stop talking trash about me to anyone I care about and work with though. Like why can’t the biters just find their own people to be interested in, but it seems like they just wait for me to find cool new models or interests or whatever and then try to jump on my coattails and copy whatever I am doing that week.

Enjoyed the jacuzzi tub at the Luxor. Their gym was great too. Had a really good workout. They’ve got these high tech treadmills where you enter your age and weight and fitness goals and put your hands on the bars and it adjusts the incline for how much strength you are using and the speed for how much cardio according to how it reads your heartrate. And there are little drink holders for your water too. I am sore today though.

Got to meet a webmaster chick I knew from the boards online and go to a Vegas locals bar. We had an odd assortment of stuff in common and that was cool. Obviously, I’m looking to hire and she has a good gig now, but it was totally fun to hang out with her and the evening didn’t end with her telling me I needed to put out or she wouldn’t like me any more.

She says she doesn’t get the stuff from the adult webmaster community where the guy webmasters are all weird and rude and insistent about sex. She is not unattractive, so I wish I knew what I was doing. I figure if some women I talk to have it happen and some don’t, then maybe there is a pattern. Possibly one I’d be comfortable adjusting my behavior on and possibly not, but I wish I could figure it out.

In all fairness, there is one person from the adult webmaster boards where I understand why they might have been irritated I was not down for having sex with them, but I am baffled by the rest and more than a little annoyed. I know that hiring someone to be the http://www.spookycash.com/ rep will fix the immediate problem, but sometimes not knowing where the issue comes from makes me crazy.

Flew out of Vegas on an 8am flight. Didn’t really sleep beforehand. Screaming children on the plane.

There is a Japanese style soaking tub with jacuzzi jets on the balcony of my suite in my hotel in Portland. Tried around three sex things I’ve never done before.

Perhaps too much information for a not exactly private blog, but I’m tired of the huge split between my public and private selves and I’m working on bringing them closer together.

People in the Pacific NW are a lot less driven than I am. People anywhere really, but it takes some getting used to in Portland. Had a great shoot last night. Had our model bring her boyfriend to tie her up and he was totally cool. That is right, one of my beautiful sexy incredible could-have-anyone models is actually going out with a good-looking guy who is pleasant to be around and nice to her. Whoo-hoo!

So checking a bunch of my online stuff remotely is difficult, but there is high speed internet in the business center in my Portland hotel.

Was great seeing Szandora in Vegas. I wish people would stop talking trash about me to anyone I care about and work with though. Like why can’t the biters just find their own people to be interested in, but it seems like they just wait for me to find cool new models or interests or whatever and then try to jump on my coattails and copy whatever I am doing that week.

Enjoyed the jacuzzi tub at the Luxor. Their gym was great too. Had a really good workout. They’ve got these high tech treadmills where you enter your age and weight and fitness goals and put your hands on the bars and it adjusts the incline for how much strength you are using and the speed for how much cardio according to how it reads your heartrate. And there are little drink holders for your water too. I am sore today though.

Got to meet a webmaster chick I knew from the boards online and go to a Vegas locals bar. We had an odd assortment of stuff in common and that was cool. Obviously, I’m looking to hire and she has a good gig now, but it was totally fun to hang out with her and the evening didn’t end with her telling me I needed to put out or she wouldn’t like me any more.

She says she doesn’t get the stuff from the adult webmaster community where the guy webmasters are all weird and rude and insistent about sex. She is not unattractive, so I wish I knew what I was doing. I figure if some women I talk to have it happen and some don’t, then maybe there is a pattern. Possibly one I’d be comfortable adjusting my behavior on and possibly not, but I wish I could figure it out.

In all fairness, there is one person from the adult webmaster boards where I understand why they might have been irritated I was not down for having sex with them, but I am baffled by the rest and more than a little annoyed. I know that hiring someone to be the http://www.spookycash.com/ rep will fix the immediate problem, but sometimes not knowing where the issue comes from makes me crazy.

Flew out of Vegas on an early morning red eye flight. Didn’t really sleep beforehand. Screaming children on the plane. Still a pretty easy flight.

Deep Breaths

Well, having been off the weird speedy antibiotics for a few, I would have to say that they were contributing to me freaking out. Plus, much as I hate to have any womanly weaknesses, my late period just started and it is an odd light pink. Don’t know WTF that is, but I think it finally starting is improving my mood.

I know I’ve behaved in some really out of character ways recently and hopefully I haven’t done any damage I can’t fix.

A bunch of supportive folks really made a big difference to me. Huge thank yous to the folks who posted here and on certain boards and who talked to me on ICQ and on the phone. You know who you are. I was really really spinning out like I haven’t since I was a teenager and your support really made a difference. My mom was even really cool. Sometimes the world gives back some of what it takes away and stuff works out.

Still trying to make some difficult decisions, but trying to remember to take deep breaths. I think this trip is going to do me good. I’ve got an amazing room at a boutique hotel reserved for Portland. I was going to stay at Luxor in Vegas, but Bellagio is running a cool promotion, so I’m debating.

I’ve only been drinking iced lattes during my period for the last few months, so I think I’m going to celebrate my bleeding with a little walk to Starbucks now that the sun is coming up. Better put a load of laundry in first or I’m never going to get packed to get to the airport in time.

Just so you all do not worry. I will be mostly offline for a little over a week, but it will be because I am shooting (and hopefully recharging my personal batteries) in Vegas and Portland and not because I shot myself or overdosed.

Well, having been off the weird speedy antibiotics for a few, I would have to say that they were contributing to me freaking out. Plus, much as I hate to have any womanly weaknesses, my late period just started and it is an odd light pink. Don’t know WTF that is, but I think it finally starting is improving my mood.

I know I’ve behaved in some really out of character ways recently and hopefully I haven’t done any damage I can’t fix.

A bunch of supportive folks really made a big difference to me. Huge thank yous to the folks who posted here and on certain boards and who talked to me on ICQ and on the phone. You know who you are. I was really really spinning out like I haven’t since I was a teenager and your support really made a difference. My mom was even really cool. Sometimes the world gives back some of what it takes away and stuff works out.

Still trying to make some difficult decisions, but trying to remember to take deep breaths. I think this trip is going to do me good. I’ve got an amazing room at a boutique hotel reserved for Portland. I was going to stay at Luxor in Vegas, but Bellagio is running a cool promotion, so I’m debating.

I’ve only been drinking iced lattes during my period for the last few months, so I think I’m going to celebrate my bleeding with a little walk to Starbucks now that the sun is coming up. Better put a load of laundry in first or I’m never going to get packed to get to the airport in time.

Just so you all do not worry. I will be mostly offline for a little over a week, but it will be because I am shooting (and hopefully recharging my personal batteries) in Vegas and Portland and not because I shot myself or overdosed.

Re: Positions listed at http://www.livejournal.com/users/amelia_g/53619.html

To be Director of Amelia’s Life/Personal Assistant, please email Amelia at BlueBlood.net in confidence (i.e. I won’t tell who you work for now) with desired pay, why you are interested in the position, and any other experience you have which might apply. Additional note: Please state whether you have a reliable car for this position.

To be Blue Blood’s Director of Online Outreach, please email Amelia at BlueBlood.net in confidence (i.e. I won’t tell who you work for now) with desired pay, a list of which business and consumer boards you currently post to, why you are interested in the position, and any other experience you have which might apply.

If you are someone I talk to in person or on the phone (rare) or on ICQ anyway, it is fine to mention it if you have applied, but please apply via email with the information requested. I will also be offline shooting in Vegas and Portland and my ICQ regularly eats messages which come in when I am not logged into it, so don’t be offended if I miss something. Hopefully, I will be able to fill both of these positions pretty quickly upon my return. A big thank you to everyone who has applied so far!

All right, I am off to finish packing and such for my trip. The packing won’t be fun, but this trip is going to rock! Whoo-hoo!

Blue Blood is hiring:

Position #1

Director of Amelia’s life

Okay, maybe I have lived in Los Angeles for too long if I feel that I need a personal assistant, but this city is like a virus and I think it infiltrates the fibers of your being to some extent, no matter how strong a personality and core sense of self you might have. I drove a rusty old Camaro when I moved here. And I loved that car.

A bunch of this will be telephone work, dealing with bookings and that sort of thing. You must be able to act like a normal person talking to rock stars and to girls you have seen naked pictures of.

Keeping track of my calendar, so I can ask you whether or not I have an evening free will be part of the job.

Reminding my ass of what I told you my priorities are will be part of it.

Going through my back catalog of model submissions and writer queries may be part of the job, depending on the background of who is selected.

Some hard goods order satisfaction will be involved.

The longer I am a webmaster, the less I like to leave the house. I have eaten my fill of all the delivery food places in Los Angeles. There will be some picking up stuff from restaurants, dry cleaning, post office, that sort of thing. Not a ton of this, but I need someone who will be okay with doing this stuff too.

Must be Los Angles-based.

Club promotion or door experience a plus.

Potential higher pay available for someone with ad sales experience.

Probable trips to conventions for the right candidate.

Please email Amelia at BlueBlood.net in confidence (i.e. I won’t tell who you work for now) with desired pay, why you are interested in the position, and any other experience you have which might apply.

Position #2

Director of Online Outreach

I really enjoy a bunch of the boards, but I’ve been spending a little too much time on them. I am looking for someone who can take a look at a number of the adult webmaster and music boards and similar, do some posting to promote http://www.spookycash.com/ and http://www.gothicsluts.com/ and http://www.rubberdollies.com/ and http://www.barelyevil.com/ etc. and give me a series of links to threads I should check out personally. You will need to be witty, aware of pop culture, and thick-skinned.

This position will also include some interfacing with press folks, but training is an option for that.

Journal and ICQ experience is a plus.

Do not need to be Los Angeles-based.

Potential higher pay available for someone with extensive traffic experience.

Probable trips to conventions for the right candidate.

Please email Amelia at BlueBlood.net in confidence (i.e. I won’t tell who you work for now) with desired pay, a list of which business and consumer boards you currently post to, why you are interested in the position, and any other experience you have which might apply.

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Okey Dokey

All right. Anyone who has been reading my journal recently can tell that as sinisher said, something has got to give.

Dingopariah, it was really great talking to you today. So good to talk to someone who really knows me while I’m all fishing for my identity. I hope you feel better soon and seriously feel free to call my cell every day while I am out of town if you feel like it.

I’m going to take a trip and hopefully that will improve my mood. I’m also hopefully going to finish this last course of antibiotics and get to stop taking them.

I’m also going to do some hiring. I need some help and trying to do too much myself is not helping matters.

Next post will be a hiring call and journal folks should feel free to repost it whererever.