🙂
What a nice evening.
journal Archive
:-)
What a nice evening.
What is an emo?
Blue Blood is #1!
http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&safe=off&c2coff=1&q=%22what+is+an+emo%3F%22
Way to get indexed. Too funny.
What is an emo?
Blue Blood is #1!
http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&safe=off&c2coff=1&q=%22what+is+an+emo%3F%22
Way to get indexed. Too funny.
Meaning
Funny thing about subculture is that, for me at least, it is partly a search for meaning. Just got off the phone with my mother. Had a death in the family. Trying to figure out funeral stuff. I’m no good with this life and death stuff. I haven’t even gotten past the spiritual plateau of man’s inhumanity to man. Sometimes I believe I can change the world by wishing hard enough. I really don’t like the things that wanting can’t fix.
Meaning
Funny thing about subculture is that, for me at least, it is partly a search for meaning. Just got off the phone with my mother. Had a death in the family. Trying to figure out funeral stuff. I’m no good with this life and death stuff. I haven’t even gotten past the spiritual plateau of man’s inhumanity to man. Sometimes I believe I can change the world by wishing hard enough. I really don’t like the things that wanting can’t fix.
Yardstick
Ha ha ha ha . . .
So my host just shut down a server attack. I have more than one dedicated server now, so if one is attacked, stuff can just be shifted and it doesn’t slow anything down that much.
I’m feeling pretty darn good because (a) I ate a good dinner and (b) when enough people mess with my online stuff, that means I am doing something right.
So . . . who feels threatened by the fabulous new redesign for BlueBlood.net? It is pretty damn excellent. The rest of us are going to have fun talking on the Blue Blood boards and those who feel threatened are cordially invited to stew in their own bile.
PS Szandora – you know you rock and I love you, but don’t feel limited on what you can say because Forrest or I feels limited on what we can say. I just might start that shitlist 😉 But both of our time is spent better on other things.
Yardstick
Ha ha ha ha . . .
So my host just shut down a server attack. I have more than one dedicated server now, so if one is attacked, stuff can just be shifted and it doesn’t slow anything down that much.
I’m feeling pretty darn good because (a) I ate a good dinner and (b) when enough people mess with my online stuff, that means I am doing something right.
So . . . who feels threatened by the fabulous new redesign for BlueBlood.net? It is pretty damn excellent. The rest of us are going to have fun talking on the Blue Blood boards and those who feel threatened are cordially invited to stew in their own bile.
PS Szandora – you know you rock and I love you, but don’t feel limited on what you can say because Forrest or I feels limited on what we can say. I just might start that shitlist 😉 But both of our time is spent better on other things.
Clarification
Allow me to clarify that when I said, “For one thing, this cow who is stalking me has done everything from toy insertion to boy/girl hardcore and it was not all artistically presented.” This was NOT what Forrest Black and I shot of her. These were shoots she did for other people. We shot her mostly for magazine covers and profiles where we did our best to make her sound as cool as possible.
Yummy
Ya know what tastes really good? Yellowtail and avocado sushi and Perrier. Living in Los Angeles is really excellent for grocery store shopping.
Yummy
Ya know what tastes really good? Yellowtail and avocado sushi and Perrier. Living in Los Angeles is really excellent for grocery store shopping.
Clarification
Allow me to clarify that when I said, “For one thing, this cow who is stalking me has done everything from toy insertion to boy/girl hardcore and it was not all artistically presented.” This was NOT what Forrest Black and I shot of her. These were shoots she did for other people. We shot her mostly for magazine covers and profiles where we did our best to make her sound as cool as possible.
I hate model politics. There is one over-the-hill model whose name Forrest and I totally made and she has repaid us for hooking her up by using her impressive name as leverage to poison good relationships I have with models who are younger or have taken care of themselves better.
So there is a model I have not worked with in a while. A model who broke a pretty major contract with me which I let slide because she told me she wanted to concentrate on being a good mother. I thought I would be a jerk to hold her to what she agreed to under those circumstances, so I let it slide. Only she has continued modeling and I don’t mean with her clothes on and in wholesome family entertainment. This is a girl we watched movies with and kids shows and had fun with and the fact that there was a personal relationship also made me feel like I should let the issue go.
Only she is shooting for sites in my program anyway. And Szandora wanted to do a shoot with her. I’m not usually on AIM, but I happened to be today and saw this girl on. Szandora was just in town, so I dropped the girl a line. It went something like this:
AmeliaG2000: Hey CensoredName, when you get back to LA, I’d like to do a shoot with you and Szandora. Rate for you is still $Censored$ flat if you have the time. sorry to see you’ve been feeling sick. Sometimes travel is just tough on a body.
CensoredName: Ame;ia..you know I don’t do porn stuff
AmeliaG2000: Have I ever shot “porn” with you?
AmeliaG2000: Have you ever see “porn” of Szandora?
CensoredName: yes..with the blue hair
CensoredName: i have to run off to a session now..
AmeliaG2000: Have you not liked some of the pix we’ve shot of you? You seemed happy at the time.
AmeliaG2000: You said you liked the pix, so I assumed you did.
CensoredName: yes i liked them
AmeliaG2000: You know I would never want a model to do any pose she was uncomfortable with
AmeliaG2000: I think you and Szandora would get along
AmeliaG2000: and I know she would like to do a shoot with you
AmeliaG2000: But you’ve done harder core girl-girl shoots than she ever has, so I’m sure we could come up with something where you were well within your comfort zone
AmeliaG2000: You are shooting for my sites anyway, so is there some problem I should know about?
CensoredName signed off at 7:58:00 PM.
WTF? I swear Kelly Lind is my hero for having the balls to post his shitlist of models he feels have behaved badly. I hate the thing where there are people who have personally had good experiences shooting with me who don’t want to shoot again because one fat bitch told them a bunch of outright lies. What bothers Kelly is different from what bothers me, but I am thinking about following his example.
I am really sick of people who nod knowingly and tell me they know the whole story with me and the aforementioned over-the-hill pro domme. *I* don’t know, so how can they? Forrest has offered to discuss the issue publicly with the girl and she can’t shut up about it behind our backs, but does not have the nerve to face us either.
If said professional domina is telling someone who likes the pictures I’ve shot of her in the past that shooting with me equals porn, that is just absurd. For one thing, this cow who is stalking me has done everything from toy insertion to boy/girl hardcore and it was not all artistically presented.
To me, the important thing is how the work is presented, not how explicit it is. I started off shooting real life couples doing what they really like to do. Way before all the internet money turned so many people into such assholes.
PS The Blue Blood boards are fun and interactive and involve a lot less complaining that lj.
I hate model politics
I hate model politics. There is one over-the-hill model whose name Forrest and I totally made and she has repaid us for hooking her up by using her impressive name as leverage to poison good relationships I have with models who are younger or have taken care of themselves better.
So there is a model I have not worked with in a while. A model who broke a pretty major contract with me which I let slide because she told me she wanted to concentrate on being a good mother. I thought I would be a jerk to hold her to what she agreed to under those circumstances, so I let it slide. Only she has continued modeling and I don’t mean with her clothes on and in wholesome family entertainment. This is a girl we watched movies with and kids shows and had fun with and the fact that there was a personal relationship also made me feel like I should let the issue go.
Only she is shooting for sites in my program anyway. And Szandora wanted to do a shoot with her. I’m not usually on AIM, but I happened to be today and saw this girl on. Szandora was just in town, so I dropped the girl a line. It went something like this:
AmeliaG2000: Hey CensoredName, when you get back to LA, I’d like to do a shoot with you and Szandora. Rate for you is still $Censored$ flat if you have the time. sorry to see you’ve been feeling sick. Sometimes travel is just tough on a body.
CensoredName: Ame;ia..you know I don’t do porn stuff
AmeliaG2000: Have I ever shot “porn” with you?
AmeliaG2000: Have you ever see “porn” of Szandora?
CensoredName: yes..with the blue hair
CensoredName: i have to run off to a session now..
AmeliaG2000: Have you not liked some of the pix we’ve shot of you? You seemed happy at the time.
AmeliaG2000: You said you liked the pix, so I assumed you did.
CensoredName: yes i liked them
AmeliaG2000: You know I would never want a model to do any pose she was uncomfortable with
AmeliaG2000: I think you and Szandora would get along
AmeliaG2000: and I know she would like to do a shoot with you
AmeliaG2000: But you’ve done harder core girl-girl shoots than she ever has, so I’m sure we could come up with something where you were well within your comfort zone
AmeliaG2000: You are shooting for my sites anyway, so is there some problem I should know about?
CensoredName signed off at 7:58:00 PM.
WTF? I swear Kelly Lind is my hero for having the balls to post his shitlist of models he feels have behaved badly. I hate the thing where there are people who have personally had good experiences shooting with me who don’t want to shoot again because one fat bitch told them a bunch of outright lies. What bothers Kelly is different from what bothers me, but I am thinking about following his example.
I am really sick of people who nod knowingly and tell me they know the whole story with me and the aforementioned over-the-hill pro domme. *I* don’t know, so how can they? Forrest has offered to discuss the issue publicly with the girl and she can’t shut up about it behind our backs, but does not have the nerve to face us either.
If said professional domina is telling someone who likes the pictures I’ve shot of her in the past that shooting with me equals porn, that is just absurd. For one thing, this cow who is stalking me has done everything from toy insertion to boy/girl hardcore and it was not all artistically presented.
To me, the important thing is how the work is presented, not how explicit it is. I started off shooting real life couples doing what they really like to do. Way before all the internet money turned so many people into such assholes.
PS The Blue Blood boards are fun and interactive and involve a lot less complaining that lj.
Starting the day
Another exclusive original new update on Blue Blood’s Gothic Sluts. Gotta make up for time lost while I was so ill. Ankle is improving too.
Just got a little sun on the roof. Cooking some purple potatoes. Can’t figure out what would be a good diet, keeping in mind the results of my most recent bloodwork. Probably going to make a doctor’s appt for a few weeks from now when I will be more coherent than I was when my lungs were trying to escape.
The new Blue Blood boards are turning out to be so friendly and supportive and cool. I’m getting reacquainted with people I’ve met from all over, plus meeting new cool folks. I expected the boards and new slew of excellent articles to improve my disposition, but not as fast as they have. Whoo-hoo! Maybe people don’t suck.