Funny thing about subculture is that, for me at least, it is partly a search for meaning. Just got off the phone with my mother. Had a death in the family. Trying to figure out funeral stuff. I’m no good with this life and death stuff. I haven’t even gotten past the spiritual plateau of man’s inhumanity to man. Sometimes I believe I can change the world by wishing hard enough. I really don’t like the things that wanting can’t fix.