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I haven’t quite finished my resolutions for the new year, but I know one is to get back in touch with what excited me about music.

Only Japan has all the really cool digital music players. Fuck iPod.

Snarfed from forrestblack whose HTML skills rule the world. I’m waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too sleepy to compose a post about this right now, especially when Forrest already did such a nice job, and my brain was already overflowing with joy about the BlueBlood.com launch. Not that I’m not always jazzed to see my stuff in print too, especially such nicely laid out and reproed print.

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Marquis #36 is just starting to hit the newsstands! Amelia and I just got a nice package with the newest issues hot off the press. The magazine has been topping itself, looking better and better lately.

Amelia G wrote a really cool column for her regular Big in America feature and covered lots of fun stuff, with a focus on some of the cool things our girls have been up to these days. Nice photos Amelia and I shot also decorate the coverage, featuring Jax, Scar, Sun Karma, Dana Dark, Kellie, and Masuimi Max. I’m super please with how this column turned out, it really came together awesome.

So, although I did get to eat some yummy food and exchange a few gifts, this holiday season has mostly been crazy work-around-the-clock time for me, but so many projects have been coming to fruition, that I am having serious workgasms, I am so happy. That last push was draining, but it feels so good to have this done. This past few weeks, a number of sites I’ve worked on have launched or relaunched, but Blue Blood is my baby and this is an all new digital Blue Blood. I feel like Blue Blood online is finally a proper descendent of Blue Blood in print. I feel so good about this site.

Commentary most welcome. I haven’t slept much lately, so, if you point any typos or whatever out to me, I will most certainly appreciate it. Unless a typo distracts you too much from how truly from the heart this is.

Much love to Forrest and Ed and all the creative photographers and artists and writers and awesome people who got in front of the camera.

So check it out, check it out, check it out already, please 🙂 Thanks.

Ya know what is kind of ironically hilarious. A while ago, I wrote a long rambling stream-of-consciousness journal entry. Buried deep in it was a mention that I wished a two-faced person would get a headache from the cognitive dissonance of being so phony. It was a very minor part of a very general and wandering entry and someone would really have to read it with care to even notice that one part. Funny thing is that multiple people got all peeved thinking I meant them and multiple “friends” of each person who took it personally had to repeat that person’s distress to me, whether or not said “friends” were sworn to secrecy.

Note to self: I know more two-faced people than I thought, but other people’s guilty consciences are extremely funny.

Note to world: If I mentioned hoping ill would befall a bad person and your self-centered ass assumed I meant you, then I do mean you, whether or not I meant you to begin with. Ba ha ha ha ha ha.

Happy holidays! I have yummy leftovers for days.

I really want to call in sick for the next month. Or at least this week. And then I want a vacation. I’ve never been to Hawaii.

I met the talented Kristin Tercek through Ed Mironiuk who has been doing fantabulous artwork for Blue Blood projects since 1995 or 1996. But Kristin wouldn’t need nepotism to be covered here because I love love love her Cuddly Rigor Mortis doll collection.
Full article here…

Forrest is technologically godlike!

If hypothetically I need to get something off of a 5 1/4″ floppy disk and Kinko’s doesn’t have the drives for that any more, any suggestions on what I should do?

If everybody in The Apprentice LJ community knew the question was coming, how could Randal have been surprised when Trump asked him whether he should hire Rebecca too? For a guy who was so smooth in so many other situations, I was surprised and kind of appalled that Randal seemed blindsided by the question. I understand him not wanting his win diminished by news stories suggesting a tie, but Trump had made it clear Randal had won already. Now instead of stories saying Trump has two Apprentices (or Apprenti) or stories saying second place on The Apprentice got a prize too this season, the stories are Randal is kind of a jerk but apparently won The Apprentice. The front page of Yahoo is running the headline Randal denies Rebecca, wins ‘Apprentice’ and running a poll with the question Trump nearly hired both until Randal nixed the deal. What would you have done? where so far 46% of respondants say he should have hired them both and 26% have selected the Fire Randal for not hiring Rebecca option.

Trump prizes loyalty and Randal just really actively didn’t show it.

In my opinion, I think Randal should have expressed that he knew Trump was busy and had limited time and he hoped to benefit from Trump’s guidance and wisdom as his Apprentice, but there is no reason why Rebecca should not also be hired to work on the project she chose, just not as his Apprentice because Randal was really looking forward to being Trump’s Apprentice. Yes, I’ve had time to think about what the “right” answer would have been, but surely Randal had to have considered it.

If Randal didn’t realize that question might be coming up, when everyone watching the show knew it was, then maybe he is just a salesman and not much of a businessperson. I had not realized until the final video about him tonight that the job he has at BCT is as sales outreach. Sometimes salesmen seem really nice and people make the mistake of thinking they are really good friends. So it is a shocker when seemingly warm and nice people suddenly turn on their friends and allies, but that is not the most uncommon salesguy move in the world.

I think Randal is just a very different sort of person from what I had thought. I’m disappointed.

So I mentioned the Blue Blood Boutique to my mom and she acted like it was really weird that I would get into clothing. I pointed out to her that we sold thousands and thousands of Blue Blood T-shirts and such when I was doing the magazine version, so launching a similar project to go with the internet version was hardly a major departure. I was really excited that the hoodies totally sold out and had to be reordered almost immediately after launch. I wanted to tell my mom about a good thing which happened and she somehow managed to imply that me continuing successfully with a successful business was irresponsible. In case anyone was wondering why I am a workaholic, there is your explanation in one easy anecdote.

For some reason, this Thanksgiving time period was a weird alignment of planets such that I received really surreal emails and phone calls from more than a dozen people from various time periods in my life. The gist of all of them was more or less to check on our connection, emotional, artistic, or professional. A lot of them asked hard questions.

Only I took one day off for Thanksgiving and gave myself a few days slack around the time of Thanksgiving on messages or email. Plus my cell phone has been kind of jacked up. I should buy a new one, but I want to keep my number and this always involves me showing my cell company the error of their ways and compelling them to let me keep it. And I just don’t have the time or energy for that right now. So, anyway, I took a few days where I didn’t immediately compose responses to hard questions and every single one of these people started contacting me repeatedly. It kind of freaked me out.

I wish people could wait for others to think for a fucking minute before responding. Either that, or be more chill about what might be said off the cuff, without contemplation.

I feel like, in this digital age, a lot of people do everything under an anonymous cloak and deny responsibility. But somehow I didn’t foresee the way most people would interact and every fucking thing I say goes down on my permanent record. Like other people can be egregiously two-faced and say the worst fucking things, but somehow it was just their internet avatar or something being a cunt, so all should be forgiven. But, if I am a bit short with someone one day, I will have to hear about it for fucking ever.

And here is another thing I hate about internet modes of communication. I feel like I can’t type a list of my blessings here, but I can stand up and complain about my curses.

Which reminds me, speaking of curses, this chick I used to be friends with said something really stupid and hurtful and fake and I wished that being such a selfish phony two-faced idiot gave her the headache it would give me, if I lived in such a constant state of cognitive dissonance. And I just heard she has had a migraine for months, starting when I wished that.

I don’t believe in magic, but I do get what I wish for pretty often. Except sometimes if I wish for the world to be a better place.

Sometimes I am really sad about lost human connections. I’ve moved so often. I wish I could go to a high school reunion, but my various high schools don’t have them. At least, I don’t think they do. I just got put on my university mailing list, but they mostly just ask me for more money and I kind of think the dough they got was already too much.

Anyway, I had a really great Thanksgiving with family and friends. And some damn good turkey and sides.

Just posted a new set to Blue Blood’s GothicSluts.com which I’m pleased about. Second, potentially NSFW shot at this link and of course the whole series is on GS. I like a certain wild untamed quality of hers which I feel we were able to capture in this image.

I’ve been watching The Apprentice this season, both the Martha Stewart and Donald Trump version. Trump is so out of patience that he is 4 or 5 people ahead on the firing process. I wonder how they will deal with it when he runs out of job candidates. The last two contestants have five weeks of competing head-to-head? Four clip shows? The Star Wars episode was not the best episode they have had by far as the contestants just were not very creative or teamwork-oriented on either team and I like episodes which I feel teach something more than this one did. But the trailers for it on the show’s site are awesome. Gotta love the Death Star project and costumed characters in a corporate business setting.

Someone who I adore (who I work with) called me “Lord Vader” the other day. I think I am flattered. Not sure if I should be, but I am.

I’m pretty sure I should be.

It is very fucking early on a Saturday and there are jackhammers, or something like them, being used outside. This construction work has been shifting my schedule to absurdly early and not rested enough.

I probably should move, but I just really love it here on so many levels. Then again, really talented friends of mine keep telling me they will help me decorate if I get a new and bigger place.

Then again, I could always go water tower on the construction workers.

Here is a picture of one of my bestest friends for nearly a decade. The whole series is posting to Blue Blood’s GothicSluts.com today.

Hey there, Californians, please remember you have until 8pm tonight to vote on a number of important ballot initiatives. You can find your polling place by going to LAVote.net and entering some address information for where you are registered.

There are a number of initiatives which would amend the California Constitution, including one, #73, which would add the language “unborn child, a child conceived but not yet born” to the state Constitution. There are a number of initiatives which could have a huge impact on education in California, as well as initiatives on alternative forms of energy and unnecessary and expensive redistricting.

You can check out the pros and cons for all the propositions, along with helpful links to partisan websites from both sides of each issue, at CalVoter.com.

Please remember to vote. You might feel like a drop in a bucket, but you are an important drop, and voting is a small price to pay for all the benefits of being part of a free society. Maybe it is corny for me to feel that it is everyone’s civic responsibility, but voting is everyone’s civic responsibility.